When I first started blogging, it wasn’t the huge entity it is today; it was for small fries who just wanted to share random thoughts with the world in a fairly quiet corner of the internet. Honestly, I’m not entirely sure when it exploded into this incredibly popular form of social media but that’s nevertheless where we’re at. Blogging is huge.
And somewhere within the last seven years, I started to buy into that market myself. As I saw other bloggers become successful and gaining hundreds of followers, I started to want a little slice of the pie for myself. I mean, it’s only natural to want to be one of the cool kids, right?! I’ve never been very good at just going on my own way.
So, in August 2016, From the Fringe was born. A fresh slate and a brand new chance to make blogging more than just a hobby. I was sure I could make it count this time. So, I’ve been working my arse off since then to make this thing a success; I work my day job forty hours a week, I commute fifteen hours a week, and I spend hours of time and effort on my other venture, The Olive Fox. Then I try to jam From the Fringe work, my social life, the gym, eating and sleeping into the rest of the very limited time I have left. It’s exhausting.
And see what I did there? I said From the Fringe work.
That’s what it has become to me. A job on top of all the other jobs that I already have to do. Something else that fills up my time and stops me from just sitting and having a cuddle with Juno, or spending time going out somewhere with Greg. I don’t remember the last time I did something on a week night and didn’t have to plan my week of scheduling and networking and researching to fit around it accordingly. Or, in the event that I couldn’t do that, I don’t know when I didn’t feel a tremendous sense of guilt for having ignored my blog responsibilities.
But ya know what? The entire world doesn’t collapse if I don’t post something on the day I said I was going to. Yes, it’s true! I tried it!
I’m tired of trying to be a brand. Because I’m not a brand. I’m just somebody who likes writing and wants a space to do it where other people can come and enjoy something I’ve penned. I’m never going to fulfill the endlessly difficult criteria that it takes to become a ‘famous’ (I hate that word) blogger, and I’m not even sure that that’s what I want anymore
So I’m just going to stop doing all of that shit and just focus on writing. This means that I won’t be posting in a regular schedule, I won’t be posting fancy photographs (because I don’t have time to learn photography either), I won’t be sitting down every night and planning out all of my social media for the next day, and I certainly won’t be forcing myself to write things that I’m not interested in simply because I think that’s what people want to read.
I will, however, still be writing what I think is awesome content, I’ll be remembering what it feels like to enjoy writing again, and I will continue to evaluate what I want from this blog life as I go along. Maybe the answer will just pop up and bop me on the nose.
Yep. I’m letting go and I feel liberated.
I’d love it if you’re cool with that and you want to just read my thoughts as they flow out of my head and onto this screen. Because you’re more than welcome to stay.
(You should also check out Rhianna’s awesome post on this subject.)
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